What is wrong with you, Jean?!?!?!

Okay, Muslims are away for their dinner and I have no Muslims to talk to. Apparently, the people I was talking to just now were all Muslims. So..

I reckon that being single is the best! You know why? So I can play around with guys, right, right, right? Can mingle around with all sorts of guys, flirt with them, seduce them, for devil-may-care. I know all these are impeccable. Whatever I said are bound to be appropriate. It would carry applauding cachet. Behaving coquettishly pleases guys and annoys girls, for all I care.

All right, I have just squealed and ranted gibberish, abracadabra, gobbledygook, hocus-pocus, mumbo jumbo, and Greek. I guess I feel much better now! Mind my words, please.

I am a lousy blogger, hah. Yes, in the sense that I am unable to organise my posts satisfyingly. Let me at least try to recall events that happened the day before today. Apparently, I have a memory like a sieve. Looking into my mind..

Thursday, 13Th September:

Albin was to meet me in my class at 0650 supposedly. Despite knowing that being a little late is his practice, I still hotfooted to school, somehow or rather. As I had anticipated, Albin was about ten minutes late. Ending abruptly..

Goodness gracious, I only have nebulous impressions on what happened, but I distinctly remembered about my few minutes stint reciting my typewritten speech. Just as Arian had closed her speech, I stood up right away. I feel more at ease that way, standing before being told and adjusting to the spectacular view of the class, lol. I approached Irfan as he was sitting smack-bang in front of the position where we have to stand for speech. I waited as Miss Tan was talking. I began putting forth my speech with "A lovely good morning to Miss Tan and my fellow classmates" and thereupon. the class chortled, perhaps guffawed. I know luh, moronic right, but at least it's a tad different from others.


Friday, 14Th September:

Let's see, well, there was a pattern today, in a way. Timothy was fiddling with Alfred's Rubik's cube when Miss Tan decided to confiscate it. Then i think whichever teacher seized Wilson's cube from Alfred. Alfred's calculator was also taken away. Uh, ignore that. Just something to giggle about as it re-enacts in my mind.


HHHHUUUUUUNNNNNNGGGGGGGRRRRRRYYYYYYY!

Xuan Da said "Never give yourself the chance to prove yourself wrong. Give yourself some chance to shine."

I still can't get over these and such. FFFFAAAAAIIIILLLLLLUUUUUURRRRRRREEEE luh Jean. I have many, and I emphasize on the word 'many', assignments left undone. One pile of work still waiting for me on my desk. I am trying to do my speech, but god knows what is the correct format. Actually, I wanted to do on the topic 'Arts', but it is rather general to me, so now I have decided on 'Gambling'? I have my brief draft done.

Even encouraging people requires skills. I mean, come on luh, you got to understand whether the person you're encouraging takes it the hard way or a softer way. How could you do that to her? Even I can encourage her better than you do.

"I'm not the competitive sort, especially when it comes to NCC matters. Because I love NCC, so shouldn't I wish well for my unit instead? I see others' capability, yet I failed to see mine. I want the very best for my unit, so I have discarded my wants."

My failure to turn up for the course, I hope, hadn't caused any inconvenience.

I must have been such a fool. I am sorry, Jean, so sorry.

THERE ARE SOME PROBLEMS, SO THE POSTS HAVE SWAPPED POSITIONS(:

Reproach me all you want, I've foreseen that all these approaching. I have mustered preparations, mentally, to withstand questions, doubts, disappointments bombarding me. For a spur of moment, I deeply realised that my commintment towards NCC these years is wasted just in a bat of my eyelid. It dawned on me how selfish I was, and I didn't put the consequences into consideration. Am I being too serious about this issue? Anyway, part of my converstion with Hadi..


hadi "yay im staff sergeant but im hungry, sigh.." says:
all of us do really feel for you
hadi "yay im staff sergeant but im hungry, sigh.." says:
because you missed the course

hadi "yay im staff sergeant but im hungry, sigh.." says:
yes, but i think in our eyes you're still a gd leader
Jean says:
nah, you don't have to console me
hadi "yay im staff sergeant but im hungry, sigh.." says:
hmm, alrighty

hadi "yay im staff sergeant but im hungry, sigh.." says:
oh alrighty
hadi "yay im staff sergeant but im hungry, sigh.." says:
mutuals were really difficult u noe
hadi "yay im staff sergeant but im hungry, sigh.." says:
like, have procedures
hadi "yay im staff sergeant but im hungry, sigh.." says:
and then we have to teach them step by step
hadi "yay im staff sergeant but im hungry, sigh.." says:
and sir joshua was in charge of me
hadi "yay im staff sergeant but im hungry, sigh.." says:
the sirs in charge were really alright
hadi "yay im staff sergeant but im hungry, sigh.." says:
the sea district CLTs were the ones who were fiercest
Jean says:
oh, i've heard about the Sea District CLTs too


Yeah, kind of like that. Then Randy, from Bendemeer Secondary, who was in the same platoon as Hadi and Latifah.


Randy pledge not tobe enthu in NCC till end of year exam is over says:
lol
Randy pledge not tobe enthu in NCC till end of year exam is over says:
Btw do U remember Nabil
Jean says:
yup, why?
Randy pledge not tobe enthu in NCC till end of year exam is over says:
He is plathoon best


Randy pledge not tobe enthu in NCC till end of year exam is over says:
No la the stupid SEA CLT and spec
Randy pledge not tobe enthu in NCC till end of year exam is over says:
request the IC to report so many time strength
Randy pledge not tobe enthu in NCC till end of year exam is over says:
for one debrief it took us about one and a half hour
Randy pledge not tobe enthu in NCC till end of year exam is over says:
And the acting CO keep on calling the CSM to report over and over again because some ppl move
Randy pledge not tobe enthu in NCC till end of year exam is over says:
SO both EAST CLT and SPEC are freaking piss off
Jean says:
well, after all, you guys were attending SSC
Jean says:
of course the standard must be there
Randy pledge not tobe enthu in NCC till end of year exam is over says:
Is not about the standard
Randy pledge not tobe enthu in NCC till end of year exam is over says:
how shall I put it.......
Randy pledge not tobe enthu in NCC till end of year exam is over says:
Because we are kinda late so we are in a rush
Jean says:
put away the anger, at least you got your rank(:
Jean says:
anyway, who took your platoon?
Randy pledge not tobe enthu in NCC till end of year exam is over says:
JC


I shall fish out more, gee.. Jean oh Jean.

The Blog Keeping Rules:

1. Each blogger must post these rules first.

2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.

3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post
there rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.

4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged and to read your blog 8 stupid facts about yourself.

First, fact one, Jean did not turn up for her Senior Spec Course.
Second, fact two, Aku tak jambu\ Tak jambu, aku.
Third, fact three, Jean just received Aqil, Xuan Da and Irfan's messages.
Forth, fact four, Jean dreamt that she was a murderer of many dregs of humanity.

Fifth, habit one, I like to flip the pages of my New Testament (I love the material).
Sixth, habit two, I can't resist to touch my cellphone with damp fingers.
Seventh, habit three, I hug a baby pillow to sleep instead of a bolster.
Eighth, habit four, I love to fidget with my piercings.

I pick..eight random people to do this.

All right, the above is dedicated to SOPHIX'S dearest Cheryl.

Tuesday, 4Th September 2007:

Well, I had Chemistry lesson that day, from 1300 to 1700. Before that, I lunched with Timothy at Downtown East. Only then, Timothy realised that his glasses were snoozing at home. Right after our meal, we headed back to his house to retrieve his glasses before going to school.

Like forever, Chemistry extra lessons aren't really that beneficial. It was rather lax, but nonetheless, it's always awesome to be granted a break, especially when we had half an hour off. Anne, Xuan Jie, Alfred, and I, went to get some refreshments. Great, right after our lovely break, we had to work on an exercise. That's also when friends come in handy, heh. I went to Xuan Jie's bench and John, Alfred were copying too. When they went up to Mr Mahathir for some explanation, I went to Alex's seat, beside Shayne since Alex was at my place with Anne, Timothy and Wilson.

Let me see.. Timothy, Irfan, Alex, Dennison, Desmond, Shayne, Alfred, and Jun Ming played basketball. Wilson, Anne and I were there to watch. Did I leave someone out? Seems like it, but don't care two hoots.



Wednesday, 5Th September 2007:

AMath extra lesson. Nothing else carries much interest. I was sick, and it got worse at night.



Thursday, 6Th September 2007:

I was like dying on my bed when.. Haryani messaged me in the morning. I told Albin I won't be there with them, but he didn't bring his phone. And I guess that must be the reason why I held them up. Then Hadi messaged me like at seven. A vague impression that someone called my house and Hadi rang me up thrice, but I was so soundly asleep, as if I was dead. I peeled myself awake because I had to reply Hadi's message or they may get to HQ late. I feel really, extremely, remorse as I kept the rest waiting. It's like, due to me being ill, I missed a great opportunity and such. I wasted a slot and may have let down some people. I felt so guilty when people asked me why am I not in camp and stuff. Whatever it is, I hope that the other nine can pass out as Staff Sergeants. Well, I am sure they can. A pity I can't see the others from Spec Course and whatever other NCC activities. Sorry, once again, to keep the rest waiting.

Everything is in a mess right now. Why is it difficult to decipher your thoughts? I don't like things to fall in place this way. Nevertheless, I will try to change myself for the better. Too many things have been taking place lately. Much words left untold.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha(:
I am delighted!

What is wrong here, this bbbblllloooooooggggggg?